be silly.

March 27, 2012

For the last few days I've been reveling in the fact that I am finally relaxed. There's no homework to do. My career is going at a great pace. Cleaning is more fun than a chore. I have time (and the desire) to start rebuilding my social life. And I am rediscovering what it means to have fun.
Be Silly Be Honest Be Kind Print by wikedpaper
For some reason, when college ended and my new career began, I found myself in a little bit of a depression. It came as quite a shock once I discovered what was happening. It seems a lot of emotions over the past few years were masked by stress, going crazy behind the scenes, all bottled up without a chance to escape. Then, when the pace of my life changed, I think I finally had time to really take note of how I was feeling. Honestly, I think it was just a lot of change to take in all at once. But over the weekend I realized that I am laughing more, acting silly, and enjoying myself in a way that I thought was left behind in adolescence. Developing inside jokes with my boyfriend, getting to know "school" friends as "lifetime" friends (this is where the conversations about our lives last longer than those about homework), organizing my apartment for aesthetics rather than sanity, and enjoying the more plentiful moments when I can ask myself "What do I want to do next?" I would like to urge all of you to slow down for a moment. To turn off the TV, put down the smart phone, walk away from the computer and reconnect with yourself.  Has it been too long since you took a moment to relax? Take 15 minutes for you. Just 15 minutes of uninterrupted "Me" time. You deserve it. Trust me.