October 12, 2015

Are we there yet?

Has it really been over a year since I was last here in this space?

Honestly, I feel a tad bit relieved because I seriously thought it had been longer. 

So...how are you? I've missed you!

Me? Well, let me tell you a little bit about what I have been up to since I last checked in before the start of B-School, GG2CB, and the Sacred Alone. I completed each of the courses, but ended up more overwhelmed than ever. I started to really question what I wanted to do next, what my passions were, and then when I thought I had it worked out self doubt creeped in. I quickly sunk down inside of myself and just laid there still. Hunkered down. I was self preserving.

Not long after, life just picked me up and decided I was now going in the passenger seat. The truth is, I've been drifting. Taking each day one step at a time and tackling whatever came my way.

Don't get me wrong, there has be a lot of fun in the last year and half. I took some classes, read some books, watched some great football, got a promotion, moved in with my boyfriend, grew a little garden, and more. But it has been a little aimless and went by in such a blur!

Looking back on past posts and images I created, I am shocked that I let this slip away so easily. (I blame this mostly on my laptop breaking, but there's definitely more to it.) I feel like I had really found my visual style and voice and I was ready to take it further and start a business helping others to do the same. The trouble is, I realized that my passion for graphic design wasn't actually I wanted to invest my time and build a career. I had a passion and talent for it, but when faced with a decision to start building a business, I wasn't feeling it. I wasn't afraid. I think it wasn't really in alignment with the lifestyle I desired. It's a good thing that I figured that out before I took the leap, but ultimately I wound up feeling lost. I thought I had finally found it...that elusive Purpose. 

So today, I am here at another crossroads, similar to where I last left you. In all of the changes and growth that happened over the last year, I recently realized I somehow lost myself. I lost touch with my creative force. I lost connection with my body and my mind. I drifted far away from everything I thought I knew about what I wanted. So, here and now I am starting over. I am coming back to the place where I last left myself.

I've learned that the only way to plug back in is to make room.  In order to reconnect with my creative force, I must create. To love my body and mind, I must embrace each lovingly and give them adequate room to breathe. To ground myself, I must focus within and make space to honor what I need each day. It's time for self love. It's time to put these important pieces of myself first and take back the drivers seat.

I will be musing here at joyful.life periodically about life, personal challenges, music, and anything that inspires or moves me. At the same time, it is my intent to build another website/blog focused on the fitness/health/goal-setting side of my life...but more on that later. For now, I just wanted to take the first step towards reconnecting with my spirit and my sacred online space.

I am already feeling better.

Oh, how I have missed you.

March 7, 2014

Lining up at the start.

Today I am at a crossroads.

In the coming weeks I will be faced with a choice. The choice to stay exactly where I am or dive in and become the person I was born to be. A good part of me is swimming in fear and desires to stay where I am comfortable, while the rest of me is excited to see what happens next.

You see...I signed up for B-school. (If you've been on facebook or reading blogs lately, you might have heard it mentioned.) B-school is a tried and true program for how to successfully and authentically run your dream business online. And then I signed up for The Sacred Alone because it sounded like some kind of wonderful and I know I am missing out on the benefits of stillness. Oh...and then there is GG2CB which I signed up for a few months ago and after a short delay is launching very soon. Holla! (Remember that time when I said I might be overcommitted? Yeah...this is why.) I've invested in myself and starting Monday my mega-training will commence.

Why am I nervous?

Because I no longer have an excuse not to be the person who I desire to be.

I will have a huge arsenal of tools at my disposal and an even bigger support group. I will have someone(s) else rooting me on. And I will be surrounded by others in the same boat and succeeding like whoa.

That's scary, right?!

Accountability? Support? Coaching? Resources? No excuses.

I am absolutely terrified of the enormity of it all. Big dreams are intense!

So, in the interest of fully diving in and following my wildest dreams, I've decided to take a short hiatus from blogging. I will definitely be back...because my brewing plans include this little blog of mine and maybe even a facelift or redesign? I certainly hope to have a renewed blog-passion when I return...maybe in the middle if inspiration hits...and I hope to see you again soon.

Until then, here is a free desktop wallpaper to remind and encourage you to...

BE the person you were born to BE.

Follow your BIG dreams and make yourself proud.

March 3, 2014

hey, monday...

This week I am grateful for the natural shifts happening around us. The past few months have been draining, stagnant and dreary, but the new moon over the weekend has brought us all a welcome change. It is time to pay attention to how we are feeling and new dreams that may be calling us. Commit to change where it feels right. Let go of behaviors or ideas that may stifle us as well as future expectations that no longer serve how we desire to live.

The past few days I've found myself over-committing out of eagerness for change. Saying "Yes!" feels wonderful and all of these additions are exciting...don't get me wrong...but I am a little worried for my sanity. This week I will work on how to follow through fluidly...positioning myself 100% behind my choices and having fun with it. I will focus (2014 one word!) on setting up new rules and intentions to help manage so many additional commitments, and focus on letting go of what no longer works or no longer serves my growing list of new directions and new dreams.

Do you have one thing that you will commit to let go of this week?

February 1, 2014

you are ready

A new moon brings with it a chance for a fresh start. A new cycle. The most recent new moon (Aquarius on January 30th) brought with it the opportunity for renewed creativity, inspiration, and the energy to become the person who you were born to be. Whatever it is that you are waiting for (or striving for) in order to begin your dream is either not necessary or already within you. You are ready. Follow your heart.

To honor this much needed energy throughout February, and keep a gentle reminder front and center, I have created 3 free desktop backgrounds. I am using "You Are Ready" to keep self doubt at bay and keep moving forward on the next big adventure. To get yours just double click on the image to open it in full size, then right click to select "Save Image As..." and save it where you choose. Next, locate the image on your computer and right click on the file to set it as your desktop background. Go get 'em Tiger!