November 21, 2012

Thanksgiving is upon us (Where has this year gone?!?!) and it's time to take inventory and remind ourselves of what we are thankful for. Last year, my list seemed somewhat superficial now that I look back, but the nurturing and comfort that each of those things brought me was extremely significant at the time. Last November, I was in my last quarter of night school and I craved moments to myself, simple things that made me smile or feel loved, and any inspiration found outside of textbooks. Of course they were in addition to family, friends, health, happiness, safety, challenges that make us stronger, etc. These items were simply the bits and pieces that brought me joy.

So...this are a few things that I am thankful for.

1. Walking. Come on, you knew I would go there! I'm almost off of my crutches and I am so thankful that all is healing well and quickly.  From this experience I also have a new respect for everyone who deals with this type of struggle daily.

2. Chocolate. It's my vice, but I love it dearly. A day is never better than one that ends with a piece of salted caramel milk chocolate. I am thankful that this simple pleasure is available to me.

3. Brotherhood and Charity. In times of need it is amazing how people come together and help each other. Selfless acts are holding much of our country together this holiday season and I am thankful for those who have stepped forward to help. (P.S. Watch for new items coming to the shop soon. A portion of the sales will be donated to Hurricane Sandy relief efforts. While the storm has passed there is still a lot of assistance needed for our family & friends on the east coast.)

4. Creativity. I am thankful that I have artistic talents I can share with the world and the world has talents they can share with me. There are so many creative people in the world...correction...everyone has creativity to share and has the ability to be creative in their own way. It is not something you have or don't have. It is a gift that we choose to use and nurture. I'm thankful that I do.

5. Readers. This little blog is a little place for me to share my life and what brings me joy, but it means so much more to me because I have you. Though you may be a quiet bunch,  you are still stopping by to see what I am up to and sharing in my experiences. I am thankful that you find me interesting. I am thankful that I am able to share something positive with you.

I could write a list miles long about all of the little things I am thankful for (chai tea, s'mores, kitties, scarves, hard cider, the color pink, candles, my family, my friends, my coworkers, lessons learned...) but the five "thanks" above are what I feel the strongest lately.

So...enjoy your Thanksgiving holiday. I hope you all have somewhere warm and cozy to go and loving people to spend the day with. I'm going to spend the day cooking, nibbling, watching football, and spending time with my loved ones. It's going to be a wonderful day.

Until next time!

monthly music

November 12, 2012

cover art: landscape by five one nine
Well, here we are in the middle of Never Say Never November. Have you said "Never!" this month? It can be tough sometimes, but I've been trying really hard not to. Every other day I put a little more weight on my healing foot and think..."Ok, that wasn't so hard. In just a few days you can try a little more!" At first I had difficulty even remembering to put my foot down, so I spent one whole day just training myself to keep my foot touching the floor with each step. The next day I started adding a little weight. It's progressing more now and I am gaining some confidence, but it's still hard to believe that in a few weeks I should be fully off my crutches and standing upright again. It's all about baby steps. It's about finding a pace.

Speaking of of my favorite things in life is the way a song can be a perfect match for an internal beat or mood. That moment when everything clicks because what you hear on the outside melds perfectly with what you are feeling inside. Typically this happens for me while driving. Something about the speed of the car, the blur of trees or buildings passing by, and the tapping of my hands on the steering wheel. Perfect moments. This month...A Sail by Lisa Hannigan is pulling a little of that my way. What songs are resonating with you? Throw out a few titles in the comments section and you never know, they may just show up on Delightful December. After all...never say could definitely happen.

Never Say Never November 2012
1. A Sail - Lisa Hannigan
2. The Tide Pulls from the Moon - William Fitzsimmons
3. Without a Word - Birdy
4. Toxic - Melanie Martinez (she's amazing!)
5. Anchor - Bess Rogers
6. 1957 - Milo Greene
7. Travelin' On - Norah Jones
8. Rules - Jayme Dee
9. When It All Goes South - Death and a Cure
10. The Waves - Matthew and the Atlas
11. Over and Again - Amiina

p.s. I must have the ocean and traveling on my mind. There seems to be a little theme running through this one. In fact, the theme carries on in the setting of this seaside bonfire video for Home by Lisa Hannigan. She is simply magical. And what a lovely way to spend an evening with friends!

finding my balance and losing my caution

November 5, 2012

In a few days I may be granted use of my left leg again. It's been a little over a month and a half since my foot injury and it's surprising how normal getting around on crutches and a knee scooter is starting to feel. It's still no fun, and a total pain in the you-know-what, but thinking about walking again just seems...well, downright odd to me. My sense of balance has accommodated the use of one leg...balancing to brush my teeth, wash the dishes, feed the cat, lock the door...and hopping up and down the stairs has gotten easier and easier. Now, I wonder how long it will take to switch back to two?

It's going to be gradual...a little weight at a I bet my balance will adjust as I go. Just as it did when I was left with no left. But I have to admit...I'm feeling anxious. While, I'm excited that this may all be over soon, I'm also a bit scared to take that first step. I'm purposely filled with so much caution now! I think through every movement before I make it just to keep safety on my side. So, how do you just turn that off?

How exactly do you throw caution to the wind?

I suppose it's time for me to find out. Somewhere in the next few weeks as I slowly add weight back on to my foot I will give "caution" - or at least anything above a sane person's portion of it - a GIANT shove. It's time to stand on my own again. It's time for Never Say Never November...and all that was backlogged in Outgoing October and Daring September.  It's time to be positively fearless.

Has anyone experienced this type of moment? What fears did you face and how did you navigate your way through? I would love to hear more about how you found your balance either a physical or emotional way. Comment below or email me with your thoughts.