August 19th

August 19, 2010

Reach, originally uploaded by

Yes...I'm still here. I took quite the hiatus, didn't I?

This past week has been crazy and everything has been put on hold in order to make it through my last few weeks of summer school. in fact, today is my presentation of my project. I'm nervous and excited all rolled into one.

For those of you who don't know, I have a huge fear of public speaking. I have managed to get by so far with the support of group projects and the option to speak as little as possible. But this time...I'm solo. the past...the words "solo presentation" were enough to make me drop the class all together. But this time...I decided to face my fear head on and immediately contact a hypnotherapist.

I have to say that I love hypnotherapy. It is nothing like I thought it would be and really...I won't know if I'm doing better until I put it to the test. But the best thing that I have learned from it is that WE are in control of everything. If I want to change my subconscious can help me do that. It can override all the doubt and anxiety in my conscious worrysome brain and guide me through this with ease. It's fascinating really. Not to mention that I absolutely adore my hypnotherapist. So much so that I would gladly pay $75 per hour just to go sit and chat. For anyone who has a fear, anxiety, or stress about anything...or even if you just want to know how to do something better, like knit left handed...she can help you. She is a miracle worker.

So...wish me luck and I will see you all on the flip-side. With another quarter down and a little over a year to go (and a helluva bumpy and spaztic ride to get there) I will be done with school and moving on to another miracle.

August 11th

August 11, 2010

Happy, originally uploaded by

I accomplished sooooo much today! So far so good anyway. (Not to mention the cheerful sun is out today.) I love days like this, where the ball starts rolling and all of a sudden the momentum makes everything seem so effortless. I've been feeling stagnant at work for a while. Struggling to get motivated. All of a sudden I'm back in action again!

It feels wonderful!



I am needed. I am necessary.

The trick now is holding on to that feeling. Instead of getting stressed...hold onto that feeling of exhilaration.

Now...let's see if this momentum can hold out for the weekend. I have a huge paper to write, a presentation to prepare, and a statement to make. (Somehow simultaneously getting over my fear of public speaking.) How about I just close my eyes until I get to the other side. Phew! I'll be so glad when it's all over.

August 10th

August 10, 2010

Stones, originally uploaded by

I'm craving the ocean today. I want to walk up and down our northwest rocky beaches hunting for treasure, inspecting the fascinating sea life, feeling the mist on my face and breeze through my hair, tasting the salt in the air, and breathing in deep.

Let your mind take you to the place that is calling your name today. Absorb the memories, emotions, and spirit that is connected with that place. Then, open your eyes, refreshed, and carry on.

August 9th

August 9, 2010

Bubbles, originally uploaded by

Busy-Busy is back. Running my life as usual and stressing me out like crazy.

Busy-busy sucked up my yesterday. All of a sudden I looked up from my homework and hours had drifted by (...and no time was left for a Sunday blog post.)

Busy-Busy is my best friend and my worst enemy. I thrive on having lots to do, but I get tired of dreaming at night about projects that I am doing while awake. I never get a break!

Busy-Busy don’t you know it’s summertime? Don’t you have better things to do? Next time bring sunny weather and mojitos and maybe I won’t be so annoyed with you.

Happy BUSY Monday!

August 7th

August 7, 2010

Rainy Day, originally uploaded by

It's a rainy day in Seattle. Big surprise you might say, but being summer, we've actually had quite a few days of sun and this is the first in a while that has been fully rainy. Frankly, I don't mind it one bit.

It's a cozy day.

It's fresh outside.

It's rejuvenating.

While it may have ruined some Seattleites weekend plans, I have found it relaxing. Yesterday I played hookie from my housework and phototaking to hit the thrift store, buy groceries, and pick up a few half priced books. So many good finds! I came home with my treasures and relaxed with a drink and some netflix.

Today...with the rain outside...I was motivated to pick up where I left off on housework: Laundry, closet cleaning, dishes, reorganizing the kitchen cupboards, and any other nesting that seemed therapeutic. Then, I baked a sweet potato and some crackers. The rain makes all of this that much more comforting and I don't feel as bad about spending a summer day indoors.

Let the rain nurture your spirit.

August 5th

August 5, 2010

Precious, originally uploaded by

Today was a pretty mellow day.

If you factor out the traffic jam and the desk rattling roar of the Blue Angels practice flying was almost serene. Quiet. Simple. Relaxed. I had nothing pressing to do, nothing I particularly struggled with, and any issues that arose were met with reason and rolled off easily. Though I would have rather spent my afterwork hours soaking up the sunset with a mojito in hand, I went to class and for once I felt I actually had something to contribute to the discussion.

Overall, today was a good day. While it could have been boring, or mundane, I've decided to take it for more than just another day. It was a day full of often unnoticeable landmarks.

As I relax and reflect on today, I found this photo speaks to me in the same way. It's simple, soft, and precious. Nothing fancy, nothing intense, and almost serene.

I hope your Thursday went smoothly too!

August 4th

August 4, 2010

Lavender Love, originally uploaded by

Somedays you just have to stop and smell the lavender. To inhale. To exhale. Touch the soft aromatic leaves. Then relax.

I find it hard to cross paths with a lavender bush without stopping to take a moment. Sometimes I wish I would cross them more often...just to have an excuse to slow down.

Is there anything in your life that makes you stop and breathe, think, smile, or relax? If so, do tell!

For now, I'm going to print this lovely photo and post it at my desk. A simple reminder to stop, breathe, and enjoy the moment.

August 3rd

August 3, 2010

Vibrancy, originally uploaded by

Today I am daydreaming. About who I want to be. About how I want to be seen. About the the life I want to lead...not the specifics, but the energy. That's a lot to think about, but the word that rings true with it today is "vibrancy."

I want to be vibrant, pulsing with energy, striking and blooming like this flower. I want that glory to be mine. I want the moments of my life to be as indescribable as the feeling I get when I look at this photo. I want to marvel at the world the way I do at the colors of nature. Most of all, I want to know that, while I am also just one of the many small wonders that grace our planet, I made an impression on someone too.

I believe this can be my truth.

Live a vibrant life.

August 2nd

August 2, 2010

PikePlace, originally uploaded by MaraRayanne.

I did the most ridiculous thing today. I woke up all excited, albeit early for a dentist appointment, ready to grab my camera and snap photos of my day. In the chaos that is me up early...I wandered out the door and somehow made my way to my appt. With a clean, fresh smile, I headed off to the office. On the way, there was the most wonderful foggy haze surrounding downtown Seattle and I reached over to grab my camera and snap a quick shot before the light changed. camera.

So...since I was slightly off kilter this a.m. and missed my photo-op, here is another photo from last year. This was taken at Pike Place Market. See, the thing about the fog this morning, wasn't so much the lovely ethereal mist, it was the atmosphere that comes with it. The cool crisp morning air, the softest mist on my face outside on the street, and the rich ocean air from the Puget Sound.

I'm telling you...if you visit Seattle on a morning like that...when the city streets are alive but quiet, when the coffee in your hand has more comfort in it than the best home cooked meal you've ever had, when the silent energy that is building makes every one of your senses dance would never want to go home.

It's my home.

My lovely city. Seattle.

This is my piece of wonderful, though just a glimpse, to share with you.

August 1st

August 1, 2010

polaroid flower, originally uploaded by MaraRayanne. we are...Day 1 of the August Break. I'm excited for this month's adventure. I'm excited to step back from the hustle and bustle of my life for a few simple moments when I can appreciate where I stand, what surrounds me (beautiful or not), and soak up the soak up life. So often, I forget to do that and my camera encourages me to do so.

This is a photo that I took last year, on a particularly hard day, when my therapy was to take a walk and absorb the beauty around me. In a rare and special moment without a cell phone, without a radio, and any other distractions of life, I looked at the world the way I used to, with pure wonder, intrigue, and admiration. This is a place that I miss, a way of thinking that I can only dream of now...simplicity.